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！昨晚和青奋斗WAR3累了。。钻进被窝后还在想1道IQ题。。想了5分钟想出来了。。脑子也彻底虚脱。。昏死过去。。今早被妈叫醒。。从迷离到清醒仿佛霎那之间。。听到的第1句话说是UCLA给我来信了。。看到的第1眼——是我妈美丽的脸蛋。。然后才是她手中的邮包。。恩。。不用拆了。。邮包代表录取。。信封代表阵亡。。可她还是小心翼翼地帮我拆了——不是我懒。。刚睡醒的人乏力——还真的是录取了。。那1刻1点也不兴奋。。只是觉得松了口气。。可以继续睡觉了。。。。

可我妈脸上早已笑靥如花。。后天就是她的生日。。这封信还是挺有意义的。。如果能再晚来2天的话。。她开心我就开心。。却又夹杂着些许惭愧。。曾经的我。。是那个大考考全班第2就不敢回家的好孩子。。是那个被人告了状回家就要吃鞭3饭的坏孩子。。现在呢。。超速行驶被条子开了罚单回家依旧被骂到狗血淋头——我的妈妈依旧是那个妈妈。。可她的儿子如今只不过是进了1所第2志愿的大学就让她乐成这样——说明了什么？。。。。我可以找借口。。可以说UCLA已经是2008年冬季能申请到的最好的学校了。。可以说LA跟那个破烂的Berkeley贫民区相比简直是天堂地狱。。有用吗？。。借口在自省面前显得如此苍白无力。。尽管其中1条是我朋友帮我找的。。。。我清楚——是我退化了。。需要救赎。。需要重生。。就从LA启程。。FIGHTING。。还妈妈半生安逸。。哦。。还有爸爸。。发现我越来越偏心了。。。。

小学老师教导我们写作要首尾照应。。那就照1下吧。。。。

1. 还是那句话。。前1天晚上不打几盘WAR3第2天考试考不出来的。。再次应验此句之精辟。。WAR3开场白Good Luck也不纯属废话。。。。

2. 那道IQ题原题如下：“一个数去掉最后一位是40，去掉最前一位是13，请问是？”。。经我运筹被窝之中长达5分钟之久后得出的结论是——40D——16进制。。D即13。。刚上网查了下答案吐血到死——四十三。。。。然后不得不感叹出题人目光之如炬。。前言如下：“朋友，你上过大学吗？如果没上过，那么以下问题可以检查出你是否是天才。如果上过。检查一下你天才的头脑是否被颓废的大学生活所同化。”。。很好。。看来我的脑子已经差不多了。。当时试过用英语来破译此题。。无解。。换用计算机语。。以为搞定。。竟从未想过从淳朴至上的母语入手。。所以。。我还读什么大学呢？。。再下去IQ连55都要没了。。所以。。我之前废话了半天都在废话些啥呀。。继续吐血。。这道题伤自尊的。。。。

！总有1点P事让人感动。。

！太平洋时间5号下午4点。。荷兰当地时间6号凌晨1点。。我照例在QQ上看到了初中同窗大哥华。。又是1个招牌式纯表情过去——我理解1个异乡学子夜半念经的那份寂寥。。他1上来就是1句：“初中的时候，你写过一片文章”；“叫作‘我的读书生活’”。。
晕啊。。这么酸。。怎么会是我写的。。
他的打字速度很快。。只比我慢那么1点。。马上又是招牌式连珠炮式短信息——有点古龙风范：“兰波儿给的评语很简单”；“叫99度的水”；“那篇文章我现在还记得”；“写的好，因为投入了真情”；“你说你小时候不很爱安静”；“然而后来慢慢喜欢看书”。。
！！！如果我喜欢看书的话。。雷锋会说他喜欢嫖赌。。布什会说他热爱和平。。酸死了。。我就回了句病句：“我从来不爱看书。我只爱看金庸的。”
他告诉我那篇写的就是看金庸。。我总算有点印象了。。好像也记得“99度的水”这句评语。。不过啥意思似乎至今也不大明白——“要射了？要爆发了？”。。不管怎样。。有人能记得连我自己也不记得的东西。。是有点小感动的。。然后我感叹可惜以前写的东西都没保存下来。。结果他又给我来了这么几句：
“那篇文章在我的书桌抽屉里”；“我帮你保存下来了”：“好几年没去动了”；“可以完璧归赵”。。
晕啊。。1种小感动的晕。。我也懒得去问我的东西怎么会跑到他的抽屉里去了。。依旧发了个纯表情过去——那个代码是“/可爱”的表情——这个我1般不用。。觉得嗲。。这次就嗲1回。。
通常我都是用1个纯表情来结束1段对话的。。哪知他意犹未尽。。
以下1段照搬原聊天记录——
 
菜 16:10:37
我记得你很多的学习生活片段
菜 16:10:51
如果有可能，我可以当面和你谈谈，呵呵
！雪球  16:12:28
好。。那我年少时那段回忆就寄托在你身上了。。
菜 16:13:01
geen problemen
！雪球  16:13:27
NO PROBLEM。
！雪球  16:13:36
少跟我卖弄荷兰语。我懂。
菜 16:13:40
也就是你人还不错，虽然成绩好，但没那么清高，呵呵，还是值得交往的
菜 16:13:44
哈哈哈哈
 
1阵疯笑。。1阵感动。。1篇文章可以不记得。。可1段往事还是记忆犹新的。。初中那3年我很乱。。乱开玩笑乱搞鬼。。起绰号不计其数。。跟谁都嘻嘻哈哈。。不知清高为何物。。但也有点傲。。不是很爱教人做题。。以至于最近1次在网上帮咪咪做题被他揶揄。。大致是说“怎么现在愿意帮人了啊哈哈”。。很好。。这种P话也只有我的知心朋友才说的出口。。我都记得。。毕竟是1起经历了3年的点点滴滴的。。小山鸡西西巴比狗说过跟我处了3年多都没摸透我这个人。。哼哼。。再想起那时候的大哥华。。他跟我私交其实不深。。属于君子之交淡若水的那种吧。。恩。。听起来是酸了点。。但却是名副其实——我们2个。。可是杭州15中98届1班全体男生中绝无仅有的2个不撩X的好孩子啊。。同学们。。你们现在应该看清我雪人了啊。。表面上虽然淫邪不堪。。骨子里却是清纯无敌的啊。。。。而且是属于出淤泥而不染的那种。。
算了。。好孩不提当年纯。。进了高中我骨子里那点清高也渐渐显露。。具体表现懒得提了。。只引用月亮高1时和我说的1句话——“我觉得你人还不错“就是不太好相处“”。。我就在想才不到1年这孩子咋就把我说得这么准呢。。出国前好像也“叮嘱”我到了那边别太孤僻。。多交朋友。。还有囊琛同学也是。。还是那句话——我都记得。。
我这人就1典型两面派——生人面前1套。。朋友面前1套。。骨子里的那点清高让我很难主动接近不熟的人。。少言。。少笑。。国人眼里可能算是装COOL。。装B。。老外对我的评价就是"TOO QUIET"。。我总是回以1笑了之。。心里在想。。你要真成了我朋友我还不用口水淹死你？。。在国外朋友倒是有几个。。可就是感觉不1样。。很淡。。很礼貌。。很拘谨。。不能讲X笑话。。不能乱起绰号。。不能打打闹闹。。仿佛人人都很清高。。
性格决定命运。。我的朋友不算很多。。大都是小学到高中的同窗。。可正如我的BLOG更新率——物以稀为贵么。。感谢可爱的学校这1媒介让我结识了可爱的你们。。我记得和姓郑的每节数学课飙题冲讲台。。记得和青偷吃路边摊。。记得和祖儿PK抓篮筐。。记得和咪咪练习双放手骑回家。。研究SB无比的“皇家正宗趟车法”。。最SB的还是跟踪模仿孟婆汤摇头式骑车。。靠。。怎1个SB了得。。。。
！谨以此文纪念让我感动的每1瞬间。。。。

！活过来了。。

！如题。。这该死的学期。。8门大课。。27个学分。。还得门门指望A。。从开学前的1天我就幻想着熬过这难忘的4个月后真该大哭1场。。就是今天。。这该死的学期总算被我弄死了。。我活了。。可惜没哭。。我真的是累了。。哭不动。。

1学期8个A是啥概念。。反正对于他们当地的无论是鬼老也好中国学生也罢。。都唯独“疯狂”2字而已。。让他们拿超过5门课还不如发配边疆服役。。我之前也是想都没敢想。。结果也只是被逼出来的。。说实话。。1点都不觉得怎么怎么的。。只叹息自己的NERD形象——也就是我们国人所谓的书呆子形象——已经深入人心了。。我显然不是。。从来都不是。。永远也不是。。却又百口莫辩。。不信的话找我挑几盘魔兽或者搞几把双扣1试即知。。总算身边还是有几个朋友理解我的。。够了。。

4个月的个中苦楚也就自己知道。。不废话了。。经历过高考的朋友应该都能体会。。当年我是游戏高3。。这下子算是补回来了。。发现自己曾经的小宇宙还是可以蓄势待发的。。唯1能让自己小感动而值得1提的是5月1号后的那1节。。

之前就想假若被UCB拒绝了真不知道自己还有什么动力挺过这最后的4周。。结果还是拖着残躯很诡异地混了过来。。。。5月1号当天的感受是1个“怨”字——觉得UCB真TMD太不识货了。。之后比较了周围朋友的录取情况——大家觉得该进的都没进觉得可进可不进的都进了——外加深度的自省。。深深觉得UCB的目光之犀利——他们能从你的选课上看出你对某专业的激情和投入[DEVOTION]。。尤其是建筑这种相对特殊的专业。。而这2点恰恰是我不具备的。。我100%承认。。我的确是有意无意地在逃避选修建筑课。。客观来说是我当初被那个死老头彻底酸死了。。拖了我GPA不说还让我见1次想吐1次。。只能敬而远之。。主观来说我只想把更多的建筑课留到高等学府去上。。这里的少拿1门是1门。。勉强把必修的都上了。。让我在安身立命之前就彻底投入进去。。我做不到。。更别谈什么激情了。。性格问题。。怨不得别人。。

当初选择了建筑而不是计算机与其说是1种兴趣偏好。。不如说是1种自我挑战。。1直以来都明白自己的几何比代数差1个档次。。外加标榜自己还能画2下子。。于是乎觉得建筑是完善自我。。深造自我的1条好途径。。然后就是近3年来的1段不长不短的旅程。。结果自然被证明是1条弯路。。既然缺少激情。。也就难有出路。。从小学5年级起搞了整整10年的电脑。。当初只想把它永远当作良师益友而非赚钱途径。。看来现在真得纳入正轨了。。

不会后悔自己花在建筑上的1年工夫。。至少学到了1直想学的。。至少浅尝了建筑学的酸甜苦辣。。只怪造化弄人。。甜味还没尝着多少。。先被XXX酸死了。。-______-!建筑这东西。。学出点名堂来的大致2种人。。好则才华横溢。。坏则酸气冲天。。TMD。。这酸的。。怎能用言语形容。。PH值说明1切。。

言归正传。。再想下去又要吐了。。现在心中反而有种莫名的释怀。。弯路已经绕过了。。正途已经踏上了。。就再也没有理由瞻前顾后。。FORGET ABOUT ARCHITECTURE..FORGET ABOUT ITS ACIDITY..[P.S.我是比较忌讳说话半中半洋的。。只是这句话用中文实在很难表达语境。。故破戒1次。。]画画这玩意。。权当1生的业余爱好吧。。休闲的东西永远可以是休闲的。。无论是否和职业搭边。。何况我还没练到那种造诣。。

所谓10年磨1剑。。这头1剑为了耍酷剑走偏锋。。灵动有余底气不足。。貌似只能脱毛。。下1剑径取要害。。稳健。。凝重。。

P.S.丑化说在前。。这1剑再刺不中我索性计算机也不搞了。。改学《窦娥冤》算了。。。。

！挂了。。

！如题。。*^&%&$^$^^^*&$#%$%&&。。

有道是1山不容2虎。。除非1公1母。。

恩。。6出祁山。。无功而返。。自己说了未必就算。。

不废话了。。把最后该死的3个礼拜熬过去再说。。来日发动B计划。。要出大招了。。

Personal Statement

！上周6。。太平洋时间06年11月18日晚7时2分。。我上交了UC Application。。这将是改变我1生的1刻。。不成功便成鬼。。半年后见分晓。。以下粘贴UC Application中的最后1块——Personal Statement——以作历史的见证。。自今日起至07年5月1日期间“雪人小屋”将不做任何更新。。喜事丧事可能破例。。都说十月怀胎修得正果。。希望我这短短半年别弄出个怪胎来。。ANYWAY..I’LL BE BACK..

 

       My intended majors are architecture and computer science. My passion for applied science has been blossoming since my childhood when I started realizing science created countless wonders in the world. Then I had my dream: probably I wouldn’t become a scientist in the future, but I would definitely devote myself to a field of applied science and make a difference in my life and even the community with my knowledge. In pursuit of that, I’ve been studying hard and performing well especially in science subjects. I find myself interested in architecture and computer science, both of which integrate creativity into applied science and provide abundant opportunities to make a difference. For instance, I love to solve math problems in different ways, and therefore design is my favorite as it’s a special type of “problem solving” for various utilities. I devote most of my spare time to practicing sketching. Not only have I gained architectural taste through it, but also convinced myself of the proverb “practice makes perfect” after comparing my recent sketches with what I created two years ago. I’ve also been self-studying graphic software over years, such as Photoshop, Flash and AutoCAD. Recently I sketched my dream house, scanned it, added ambient effects with Photoshop, and it turned out unique and interesting. For fun, for knowledge – that’s the motivation that keeps me marching on towards the field of applied science.

 

       There’s an old Chinese proverb: “Devote yourself before asking for something.” It implies the spirit of cooperation. Nobody can succeed without the help of others. I’ve heard about facts where some computer geniuses at Microsoft Corporation end up with failure simply because they don’t quite commit themselves to teamwork. Realizing this, I’ve been urging myself to get involved in the community. I got my first job in the U.S. almost two years ago as a chemistry lab assistant. Although I was confident in my duties since I’m good at chemistry, I didn’t quite enjoy myself due to lack of interaction with people. Thus I felt I hadn’t made much difference – or contribution – to the campus. Fortunately, with the recommendation of two instructors, I switched to Tutorial Services this semester. Having won several math and physics competitions in both China and the U.S., I’m committed to tutoring mainly on these two subjects. I’m fascinated by my job immediately noticing the difference I’ve made. Every time students turning to me with a gloomy face will end up with a big smile due to their new awareness of the subject – that’s what I’m expecting to see. Every time after a tutoring session I feel more knowledgeable of the material as well – that’s what I’m pleased to gain. Time and time again, I spur myself to review the relevant subjects to guarantee my tutoring quality, so that I’ll neither disappoint my students nor myself. That’s my understanding of the saying “tutors learn twice”. I really appreciate tutoring in that tutors and students are mutually helping each other to make a difference in academic achievement. Therefore every time students thank me, I answer “thank you” in return.

Furthermore, I’m currently a member of Alpha Gamma Sigma Honor Society, participating in weekly club meetings, fundraising activities, and community services, such as Pow-Wow, blood drive, AIDS walk, Halloween-Gram, bake sales, etc. I find my involvement meaningful as these activities not only enrich my extracurricular life, but also benefit the society. All members have the opportunity to contribute their unique talents and share their life experiences. For example, once at a bake sale, I was in charge of the cashbox as I’m considered the “math expert” of the group, while another member who’s good at public speaking offered to advertise. Thus we maximized our efficiency with a scientific division. Working is fun and rewarding if ingenious cooperation is engaged.

A few months ago, lung cancer took my beloved uncle away. I fell into such deep sorrow that I suffered several sleepless nights at that time. Soon I was aware to rouse myself rather than sink into endless affliction. I decided to put my emotions into action and found a volunteer opportunity at the American Cancer Society, where I work every Friday ever since. Although I barely have any medical qualification to fight against cancer, fortunately I’m assigned as a database editor and translator. I believe dedication is not judged by the type of work one does, but by the effort he/she makes into it. I feel proud to be a small “bridge” between two cultures whenever I translate between Chinese and English. I also assist with Proposition 86 campaign and computer troubleshooting, thanks to my ten-year computer experience. I don’t know how many lives I could save with my trivial work in the office, but at least I’m sure I’m being helpful and I’m putting my heart into my duties as I can fully empathize with the pain of cancer patients. That’s how I make a difference in my grief as well as in other cancer victims.

 

       I graduated high school in China with excellent academic performance and immigrated to the U.S. two years ago. My family realized it would be exceptionally challenging to start a brand-new life in another country. Language, finances, housing – everything seemed rigorous. I had to break through the hard times and attended West Valley College without any delay or hesitation. However, I could hardly understand what my instructors were talking about at the beginning. Worse still, I even appeared inexperienced in my favorite calculus class. After self-studying the textbook thoroughly, I mastered all the notations and terminology in math in the first academic week and eventually aced the course with over 100% grade. I was back – back with my learning skills, back with my confidence, and back with my ambition. Diligence gives me confidence, while confidence gives me courage to overcome any frustration in return. This reminds me of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. I was wandering at the bottom of the pyramid upon arriving in the U.S., seeking for survival. Then I kept climbing up and up towards the pinnacle – self-actualization. I believe someday when my dream comes true, the pyramid will be completed and the difference will be made.

！好吧。。更新1下。。

！呃。。WCG开始了。。贴1张“万人迷”4K.Grubby的玉照。。祝我们的兽族皇帝再现辉煌。。